Friday, February 20, 2009

Living is Simple

Mweh~, I was boreded =3

1. Put your MP3 on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
My Surrender - Steven Curtis Chapman

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Let it Roll - Secondhand Serenade (OMG YES! XD)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I Gotta Find You - Jonas Brothers ( =.='' )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Bim Bam Smash - The Bourne Supremacy OST
(HULK SMASH!!!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Take My Life and Let It Be - Cris Tomlin ( ^_^ )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Holy Diver - Killswitch Engaged ( 0.o )

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
One Girl Army - Five Iron Frenzy
(A one girl army would so kick ass)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Carrot Juice is Murder - The Arrogant Worms
(STOP THE SENSELESS GENOCIDE!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Title of the Song - DaVinci's Notebook
(If you know the song you'd laugh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Lovers in Japan - Coldplay (*cough* *cough*)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Island in the Sun - Weezer
(ah, beach bumming XD)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dance Inside - The All-American Rejects

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions
(OK! THIS is seriously messed up >.<)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Innocence - Kenny G
(I doubt this very, very much)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Feeling Good - Michael Buble
(That is most definately how I will be feeling ^_^)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Only Hope - Switchfoot
(He is)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
War Within a Breathe - Rage Against the Machine
(*breathes in*)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I'm Only Me When I'm With You - Taylor Swift
(pfft, not true)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
It's Over - Nickelback
(OH NOES :'( )

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
( Could be worse actually... )

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Into the Ocean - Andy McKee
( I guess this ties up with the Holy Diver thing? 0.o )

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Norah Jones
(*lol* you can't go over a rainbow *teehee*)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Refector - Planetshakers
(the sunlight makes me cry XD)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Everything In It's Time - Corrine May
( Perfect match heh )

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Guerrilla Radio - Rage Against the Machine
(OOO OO AH AH AH GROAR!)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
I Wanna Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Maybe - Secondhand Serenade
(why got 2 times same band ah... so lame la my shuffle)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Can't Get Away - Third Eye Blind

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Living Is Simple - Switchfoot
(again... double times =.=)

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Bah HUMBUG... or not...

Valentine's Day...

This is a pretty messed up occasion as it causes emotions in everyone. These emotions can be good or they can be bad.

For the "unavailable" this is a time of romance and togetherness with your significant other. A time to rekindle or restore the fire of passion that may have dwindled or become smaller through the passage of time. A time of choclates, flowers and lovey-dovey cards.

For the single but looking, it is a time to ask that one person you've been eyeing or chasing to be your valentine. A special title given to the one that has been chosen to be specially treated or told how much they mean to you. A time to maybe start a relationship that will last a lifetime and result in a loving and tender marriage. A time to risk it all for that one person you like or perhaps, maybe, even love.

Then you have the people who just think it's a day of mourning that they are alone and without hope. A time of emo-ing and moping. A time where you dispise the members of the opposite sex more then any other day of the year. There may be many reasons for this. Previous hurts, unappealing image, or maybe you just don't give a flying flapjack about love or relationships. A time where you sit at home alone and laugh at other's pathetidc attempts to try and achieve something that you think is impossible and useless.

And yet... through this time of mixed emotions, there is also something about Valentine's day that just makes everyone appreciate the one's they have right now. Their parents, siblings, friends. All of these people who are there for them all year round, regardless of what heart-bearing, choclate-scoffing occasion comes along. These are your true valentines. The ones always there for you. The ones you can count on to be there for you at 3am after a painful fight or a break-up. The ones who tell you you matter to them.

So, on this day, I may not be in category 1, with a lover to cherish and lavish with gifts and blow my life savings on. I may not be in category 3, hating this day and everything it stands for. I may possible be in category 2, but that's something that a lot of guys my age are in =P But no matter what category I am in, I will always remember the people who are there for me all year round.

Will you be my valentines? =3

I love you <3

-Ian

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Degredation

Ever seen a group of termites eat a piece of rotting wood? They swarm around it till it looks as if the wood is alive and moving and withing moments there's nothing left but splinters and sawdust.

That's what jealousy is like, it eats away at you. It covers everything and just chews away until you're nothing left but mulch. That's how I feel right now.

I know it's not right, I know I should be "happy for you". But I'd be lying if I said I truly was. It's not something that I will be able to take lightly. I don't hold it against you, you've got your own life to live, who the hell am I to tell you how to live it. Who the hell am I to you?

Everyone loves a compliment. That is a fact. Have you ever complimented someone and have them reject it? Since everyone loves compliments, we should be giving them out a lot more often don't you think? I do. That's why I try to tell you how much you mean to me, how much the things you've done for me are appreciated, no matter how small. I try, and if I have missed anything I'll tell you now

I am really grateful for you. For who you are to me and for what you've done for me. You have definitely become someone that I treasure and never want to lose. Thinking of how when you go off to study, somewhere out there in this big world, you may never come back to Malaysia, I just wanna cry sometimes, I have. You're one of my true gems of friends.

I <3 you =3

But, you have you're own life, with other friends, all of whom seem to rank above me. Call me oversensitive or whatever but this is how it seems. Many have criticized me and told me I should just let it go, but that never helps. It's like they say you know, the ones you want to be there the most are never there for you. Depressing as it may be, I do try not to let it affect me. I do try to smile and go on. Shrug off the disappointment and the let-downs and just run with it. ^_^ see? Everyone loves compliments. No one likes to be pulled down or insulted. No matter who they are, how tough the seem, how much they don't seem to care, irregardless of the amount of times they have been insulted, it still hurts. Everyone loves compliments, so here's one for you:
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
But now it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
^_^
You're Beautiful - James Blunt